18 weeks

     Today I am 18 weeks 4 days pregnant.   5 1/2 more weeks till we hit our first goal, viability.  WE had our level II ultrasound and everything looked great so that gives me some reassurance. Although I know from past experience nothing is set in stone.  Horrible things can happen at any moment.  I am really hoping that once i get past 21 weeks I can start enjoying this pregnancy a little more.  I still haven't bought anything for this sweet girl.  I guess I'm a little afraid of jinxing a pregnancy that is so far going well.  I one thing I regret not doing in past pregnancies is having a 3d ultrasound so I am hoping to get that done around 28 weeks.  Making the appointment is kind of liking buying something and I'm fearful after I schedule I will have to call and cancel.  My next ob appointment is the 24th and I will be 21 weeks 1 day.  It will be the same week I found out I lost Noah.  I hope to make it to this appointment without having another panic attack and bawling phone call to the  dr.'s office.  Making small goals is the only way I am going to make it through this pregnancy.