It's been six weeks since I got my BFN from my IVF cycle. I've had a lot of time to think about how far I am willing to go. How many treatments will I do? Will I return to trying IUIs when my insurance will no longer cover IVF? Well I think I know my answers to these questions that weigh on my mind on a daily basis. One of the things I promised myself was that I wasn't going to let infertility consume my life and this last cycle I failed miserably. It was time to stop the pity party and started living again.
These last few weeks I have gotten back in the kitchen and tried new recipes. I have made significant progress on my first quilt that I have been making. I have finished a busy book for my son. And I have planted my seeds in hopes of having an amazing garden this summer.
What I have come to realize is that my life is good and I enjoy living it. I am half way through my FET cycle and have not obsessed about the odds of being successful. I refuse to take multiple pregnancy test during the two week weight. And for the next few weeks I will continue to do the things I love and not let infertility control who I am.
I try so hard for it not to control me and it does!!!
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