Frozen embryo transfer and the two week wait

     April 22nd I had my frozen embryo transfer and it went great.  At my clinic the doctors rotate but after my failed IVF I asked my doctor if he would do it.  He did my transfer 2 1/2 years ago and I got pregnant.  I found it interesting how during my fresh cycle the doctor was like here's your uterus insert embryo.  Well this time with my doctor of chose he was more like lets push this little embryo right against your lining.Now maybe I'm just being picky but I think it makes a difference.  After all I have been getting positive pregnancy test results since Saturday April 27th.

     So this is how crazy I am during the two week wait. I have tested nine times since the transfer sometimes twice a day.  I have used four different types of pregnancy test  and every time i use a cheap Stop and Shop one it is always negative.  This made me go out and buy more test, digital ones this time.  No making an error in reading these ones.  These ones are Clearblue Easy Digital and always say pregnant (I like these ones).  So for now I say I am pregnant and on Friday when I go for my Beta test I really hope my number is high enough that the nurse says I am pregnant too.

It's a Go!!

     FET is scheduled for Monday!! I am so glad I made it this far through this cycle without any hitches.  Now it's just up to my little embryo to make it through the thawing process and all will be good.  I know it's silly but I am so confidant that this will be the cycle that ends positively that there is just no room for doubt or negative thoughts.

     So in about 2 1/2 weeks I can't wait to share with you all my positive beta test.  

Fresh Outlook

     It's been six weeks since I got my BFN from my IVF cycle.  I've had a lot of time to think about how far I am willing to go.  How many treatments will I do?  Will I return to trying IUIs when my insurance will no longer cover IVF?  Well I think I know my answers to these questions that weigh on my mind on a daily basis.  One of the things I promised myself was that I wasn't going to let infertility consume my life and this last cycle I failed miserably.  It was time to stop the pity party and started living again.

     These last few weeks I have gotten back in the  kitchen and tried new recipes.  I have made significant progress on my first quilt that I have been making.  I have finished a busy book for my son. And I have planted my seeds in hopes of having an amazing garden this summer.

     What I have come to realize is that my life is good and I enjoy living it.  I am half way through my FET cycle and have not obsessed about the odds of being successful.  I refuse to take  multiple pregnancy test during the two week weight.  And for the next few weeks I will continue to do the things I love and not let infertility control who I am.