Well it's day ten of stims and it feels like ten days too many. My overies feel as big as baseballs and I try to be happy about that because it means many growing follicles. Being uncomfortable is slowly turning into painful and my belly is starting to look like a pin cushion. 6am daily to ever other day monitoring is starting to wear on me physically. All of this I can handle though. The physical hardships of infertility I can get through. The emotional side of this is another story.
The other day I took my son to a play place to play and have lunch. Well I ordered him a grilled cheese and it came with carrots, apples or chips none of which he would be thrilled about. So when we checked out I asked if we could have a banana instead of the apples and the girl behind the counter was like "we don't do that here." Needless to say I got extremely upset and just wanted to leave. The logical side of me knows I am over reacting but the emotional side feels like the world is falling down. This happened last Monday and I can feel myself slowly getting worse. Feeling like I am alone and honestly just sad about nothing and everything. Please let this cycle be over soon and please let it end in happiness.
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