September

     IVF number four is underway.  I had my suppression check yesterday and everything looks good so I start my egg growing injections tonight.  It's funny how your feelings through this process change.  When I first started injections I was so nervous that I would do it wrong or mess up an then not have enough medication.  Now it's like second nature and I'm done is less than a minute.  The procedures use to seem like so much more to me.  But now it's just science and some days it's my friend and others my enemy.  I've found peace with my life.  Would i like another child?  Of course I would otherwise I wouldn't be doing this at all.  Will I be shattered if it doesn't work?  No.  I will be sad but I will be okay.